Every day since returning from my trip to Costa Rica, I’ve been restless and irritated. Thrown back into THIS life, after experiencing THAT life, has really messed with my brain.

Just last week I was living in a bathing suit.  I was awake every morning to greet the sun and started the day with a walk on the beach — stopping on the way home to pick up fresh fruit for breakfast.

Just last week I was swimming in waterfalls and hiking to volcanos.

Just last week, I was calm and happy.

Just last week I felt healthy and more like myself than I had in a long, long time.

Re-entry is tough. And I think I might be experiencing a little reverse culture shock. I feel as though I am not where I belong, which is weirdly unsettling. As the distance between then and now widens, I feel like I’m losing a part of myself that I was just getting to know, and like. That girl wore two-piece bathing suits and didn’t straighten her hair. That girl breathed slowly and floated without care in swimming pools.

Since coming home, I find myself oddly disconnected from the things I used to think were important. Frustrated, even, that so much time is spent hashing and rehashing things that just end up stressing us out. You know, that whole “why are we sweating the small stuff?” thing…Yea, I’m there.

My heart is more open to the idea that there is not just one path in life. That we don’t have to live up to anyone else’s expectations of us. We have to be true to ourselves. Take good care of ourselves. It’s our responsibility to take care of our mind, body and soul. If we don’t, who will?

Since my return, I’ve spent hours checking and rechecking real estate listings in Guanacaste. I’ve read every article I could find, including “So, You Want to Live In Costa Rica? Read this,” where the writer sums up my own personal sentiments about being in Costa Rica with ‘Of anywhere I’ve traveled to in the world, Costa Rica is the only place that really feels like home. It’s the place where it’s easiest for me to relax, the place where I feel the strongest sense of community, the place where I feel the happiest and healthiest…’ Yea, me too.

And even though I did download Nadine Pisani’s latest book “The Escape Manual,” I won’t be selling my house and moving to Costa Rica tomorrow. I am hoping, however, that I can take what I’ve learned and incorporate that into this life.

But for today, I’m gonna be honest…

#TodayIWantTo move to #CostaRica and write and paint and wiggle my toes in the sand. What about you?